than to blog. that is the question.
or maybe it is really just that i swing wildly back and forth between wanting to pour my heart out here, in positive and negative realms, and wanting not to expose myself. the fear of my distant associates finding me here holds me back, and the pain-in-the-arse-ness of the passworded post keeps me from that route right now…sigh.
in lieu of a) suspending my blog and b) writing reams about the latest wounds with salt in them, here are some random bullets greg-style:
- i brought home a gorgeous loud musical instrument, which forced me to completely rearrange my room to fit it in. i will have to obtain mute pads before i can play it but i am SO HAPPY. i got a good deal on craigslist.
- i had an awful run-in with straight culture this past weekend — an evil straight dude basically came on to me with his wife IN THE SAME ROOM. GROSS.
- i had a terrible femme fashion moment — due to the pouring rain i had succumbed to the dreaded temptation to wear my sneakers to my new employee training, which culminated in lunch at the faculty club. i’m happily munching my grilled cheese sandwich when all of a sudden the dean of my [former] graduate school walks in and sits at the table next to us. this is a person who has a high opinion of me, and even higher expectations. AND I WAS WEARING SNEAKERS WITH MY WORK CLOTHES. epic fail. i tried to hide my face but she was on the side of me that has less hair (i’m parting my hair on the side these days) and so all i could do was try to hide my feet under the table & hope she didn’t notice me. i’m calling this a lesson learned for good.
- i’ve been re-connecting with the music scene here in boston and going out more, and it feels so so good. i feel like i lost sight of how much i love going to rock shows and watching people make music. a main motivation for having just made my extravagant and awesome purchase is to bring it home even more personally and have an opportunity to do it as well as watch. yay.
i think that’s all, folks. stay tuned for bi-monthly angst and updates❤