i can’t believe i forgot

so, friday was my one-year anniversary of starting this blog.  i don’t have a lot to say about it right now, but it was a really meaningful experience.  i feel like i’ve evolved a lot as a person, i’ve become a more comfortable writer (which was one of my goals, as i have always been incredibly self-conscious about it), i’ve made friends (which was another goal), and i’m constantly re-realizing that the very most important thing in life is to survive.  not to do well in school, or to be considered brilliant, or to be the best possible person, but to survive, with all my complicated parts that make me a complete human being.  i started this blog in part to claim the right to have a voice, however small, after many years, perhaps even a whole life, of being silenced.

so thanks for reading, everyone.  i could write about the day of silence, or the counter-event day of truth, and i will sometime i promise.  right now i’m working on a paper about lgbt youth suicide, and it’s making me so sad.  it reaffirms my own experience; though i didn’t ever try to kill myself, i know people who did or thought about it.  

but i’m really busy, and as a result have been flooding you with boring memes.  

what a lot has changed in a year.  i am excited to change some more.  plunge right in and see what’s next.  i think a tattoo is in my future, and yet more shedding of worry about what others think of me.  i want to learn more about anti-racism; i am realizing that i have privilege that i can only dimly imagine, and i want to become less comfortable in it.  i can’t erase it, but i can become more aware of it at least.

now that i’m writing this i want to keep going, and tell you everything that’s on my mind, but i have to get back to work.  like i said, thanks for reading.